My own wallpaper edited... =X nice? 

Squall and Rinoa... How I wish.. I was Rinoa..... sobz....  

Emotional Week........ Really emotional week,... Sad sad sad sad sad...

It will heal...
There is now nothing I feel...

Confused, bewildered, heartbroken....

I made the biggest mistake I made since June.... I looked back on my past...
Its been so long since I gave my heart to another person...
and as usual... it fell not to outstretched arms, but cold heart floor....

Shattering to a thousand pieces... I'm left alone to pick up the pieces...
Is it to much to ask?... to be loved... to feel loved....
I feel so alone... so lonely... so cold...

As I pick up each of the broken pieces, each piece pierces me.....
But I have no choice... I still want to live...

Soon I will freeze my heart again... and this time... when it freezes... I will definately seal it for a very very long time...

This week has been a really really emotional week for me...

I've lost my touch with reality when I focused so hard on reality...
Projects, friends, and... love....

Barely even 24 hours after I just cried for 7 hours in a row... My fren got irritated with me...
I dunno.. instead of comforting me... he said that he felt intimidated... because I was feeling sad?!!
I really dunno wad I to say...
He treasures his CSCC friends more then us... I just realized that we are just normal friends to him... and worse still he is drifting away...

My emotions were anger at first, then sadness and disappointment....

Within this week we were rushing like hell for the 4 projects which dateline is coming up very soon... We tried to do so much... but its just not enough...

I hope we'll be able to finish a neat project in time...

My emotions were stress, fear and worry......

Within my emotions that I felt this week, my heartbrokeness is the most visible... I lost my heart, I lost my love...
Every other emotion pales in the light of this...
So hurt... I injured my own heart... I cant belive it.... Not again....

5 days has passed, I spent 4 hours talking to myself, 3 nights crying myself to sleep, talk to 2 frenz about it, and felt like 1 idiot...

haiz... My emotions were sadness, heartbrokeness..... just mostly sadness... the epitome of sadness...

Sad... I'm just so sad.....
Each tear that drops down onto my keyboard is an invisible hand reaching out to heal my broken heart...
I must have cried a billion tear drops by now....

My New Tag 

Squall........ Squall Squall Squall Squall....... 

Live Carefree!!

There are two days in every week about which we should not worry, two days which should be kept free from fear and apprehension.

One of these days is yesterday, with its mistakes and cares, its faults and blunders, its aches and pains.

Yesterday has passed forever beyond our control. All the money in the world cannot bring back yesterday. We cannot undo a single act we performed. We cannot erase a single word we said. Yesterday is gone!!

The other day we should not worry about is tomorrow, with its possible adversities, its burdens, its large promise and poor performance. Tomorrow is beyond our immediate control. Tomorrow’s sun will rise, whether in splendor or behind a mask of clouds. But it will rise. Until it does we have no stake in tomorrow, for it is yet unborn.

This leaves only one day: Today. Any man can fight the battles of just one day. It is when you and I add the burdens of two awful eternities – yesterday and tomorrow, that we break down.It is not necessarily the experience of today that disturbs one’s peace of mind.

It is often time the bitterness for something which happened yesterday and the dread of what tomorrow may bring.

Let us therefore live one day at a time.

Andrew

KyO_17

Falling.....

I dunno what is happening to me...
Haiz... I fail myself many times... and I fail God even more...

I cant help it... I cant stop myself from thinking... I wish I could....

My terrible past... I guess there are quite a number of people who knows already... I thought I could escape, I could turn and walk down the correct path once again... But the tug is so strong.....

Haiz...

Tomorrow I'll be embarking on the campus crusade camp... Hope I will learn something out of it...

Mood: Haiz.....